This question has bothered me often these days. While I didn’t want to consider it, it still made me think why it crossed my mind in the first place. Others may think that it’s easy for us to quit but it’s not. There are a lot of sleepless nights and mornings when we feel like we’re dragging ourselves to a place where we don’t feel happy anymore or sometimes we just feel like we have had enough. Some would suggest to give it some time just because it’s easy for them to say. They’re the ones who are usually content with their work -and I am happy for them!
Based on my experience, I already had 3 companies in just a span of 2 years. First was with an international bank. Pay is above average. Too good for a starter! Although it’s for project-based employment only, I was not able to finish the 6-month contract. I can remember myself being so vulnerable during those times because of a personal problem that it kind of reflected to my work ethics. I was often late but still able to deliver. I also felt intimidated with my colleagues. I guess I was shocked with the kind of culture they already have there. They were all very professional – which I really thought was very aspiring. However, they were not just friendly – very opposite to me. I can remember going to work and just talk to my self because they just won’t talk to me. I stayed with the company for just 2 months. Both parties were under mutual agreement that I shall not continue with the contract anymore.
Next was with a recruitment firm. I could say that it was a better place for me because I have found my self a new bunch of friends – those that are of my age bracket. Since my previous work was a mess, I prayed to God that He bless me with a new job that I will enjoy and so He did. The entire stay was fun but I was receiving a not so competitive basic. Although, we get incentives but they are based on how hard you work. Basically, we get extra pay on how many hires we have in a month. I stayed and performed well for about a year and 3 months.
Last was with a known telecommunications company. The opportunity was there and I was receiving a very competitive salary. I stayed for 4 months and left because I was in the state wherein I really didn’t know what I like to do in my life. I was a Strategic Accounts Manager for SME Sales. I get to talk to clients everyday and manage my bag of accounts – which had 64 companies in it. It was in a way a very aggressive selling job and it made me question if I really like what I am doing. I am a graduate of Marketing and Advertising and to me Sales is really not what I would want to do. I would rather do branding or think of a product concept and present it to the Sales team because that’s where I am exceptionally good at.
After leaving the most recent company, I just thought to myself of what I really want to do and it fucks me up every time I don’t get to respond with a more precise answer. Should I study again and get a 2nd degree because it’s too early for me to get Master’s or enroll to a culinary school? I also thought about going abroad but was having hesitations and I can’t live alone. Needless to say but I want so much to do in my life that I don’t know where to start.
Because of my situation, I could not help but feel bad for not having a stable job. I was thinking about it for quite some time. I didn’t want to regret that’s why I looked in to the brighter side. I realized that there isn’t really a need for rush, that I should not feel bad, and that I have to allow myself to commit more mistakes as possible so I can learn from it. I know that in time God will bless me with what I deserve.
So to anyone who goes through the same thing, it’s okay or it will be okay. If you ever need to think about quitting your job, weigh your chances, think deeper and most importantly, pray. Besides, it’s hard to continue if half-hearted. You will not have the answers as soon as you needed them but it will come. God will enlighten you with it. Do what makes you happy.
I have long been waiting and planning everything from scratch because that’s how excited I am for my party. I wanted to go big this time and celebrate with some of the closest to me. Turning a year older again and I am so blessed to be loved by many.
We have found a place to rent in Canyon Woods – Batangas. The 2-story house has 3BRs and 3 toilets. It has an average kitchen space and has a comfy sala, too! It also has a space in the back kitchen where you can grill. Overall, the place was just perfect for #DWKND.
Saturday morning we rushed to the groceries to buy everything needed for #DWKND – food, utensils, charcoal and all that’s necessary. The liquors were bought during the time S&R had a Mega Sale where I took advantage!
On our way my parents were calling me because of this earthquake that happened in Batangas – where we planned to go. We did not feel like there was until the time when we got inside the house and witnessed how the frames were shaking. After few minutes it stopped! I prayed that no one gets hurt.
Since I am the boss, I put everyone to work – down from slicing to the grilling. I wanted to get everything set by 6 PM. While everyone is busy doing their own thing, we already started drinking beers. It was so much fun seeing them having a good time.
Come 6 PM, everything was set. All of them were there. To my surprise, a special someone surprised me with a cake I did not know I had. I was planning to blow a candle from a bottle of the liquor since I did not bother to buy a cake for myself. Ha ha!
So they sang me a happy birthday song and the rest of the story goes…
All went down crazy that night. We felt like we were a bunch of high school students living YOLO. I guess most of us just wanted to leave all the stress we get from the city and just have the best time.
And then all else got drunk except for the birthday boy. Morning came and everyone was sober except for me ha ha! I decided to insist on going to the beach because it was too hot at that time. We went to Calatagan in Batangas where it’s an hour ad a half away from where we were.
I took the time of travel as the best chance to catch some sleep. Look! Ha ha!
Then here comes the beach…
After the beach, we decided to go back to MNL and face the reality once again. More pictures posted in my Facebook.
#DWKND was worth the wait and gastos! Thank you all for your warm birthday greetings, did not expect I would get as much. To all those who helped me execute the plans for my party, a big thanks!
Can’t wait for next year! -D