This question has bothered me often these days. While I didn’t want to consider it, it still made me think why it crossed my mind in the first place. Others may think that it’s easy for us to quit but it’s not. There are a lot of sleepless nights and mornings when we feel like we’re dragging ourselves to a place where we don’t feel happy anymore or sometimes we just feel like we have had enough. Some would suggest to give it some time just because it’s easy for them to say. They’re the ones who are usually content with their work -and I am happy for them!
Based on my experience, I already had 3 companies in just a span of 2 years. First was with an international bank. Pay is above average. Too good for a starter! Although it’s for project-based employment only, I was not able to finish the 6-month contract. I can remember myself being so vulnerable during those times because of a personal problem that it kind of reflected to my work ethics. I was often late but still able to deliver. I also felt intimidated with my colleagues. I guess I was shocked with the kind of culture they already have there. They were all very professional – which I really thought was very aspiring. However, they were not just friendly – very opposite to me. I can remember going to work and just talk to my self because they just won’t talk to me. I stayed with the company for just 2 months. Both parties were under mutual agreement that I shall not continue with the contract anymore.
Next was with a recruitment firm. I could say that it was a better place for me because I have found my self a new bunch of friends – those that are of my age bracket. Since my previous work was a mess, I prayed to God that He bless me with a new job that I will enjoy and so He did. The entire stay was fun but I was receiving a not so competitive basic. Although, we get incentives but they are based on how hard you work. Basically, we get extra pay on how many hires we have in a month. I stayed and performed well for about a year and 3 months.
Last was with a known telecommunications company. The opportunity was there and I was receiving a very competitive salary. I stayed for 4 months and left because I was in the state wherein I really didn’t know what I like to do in my life. I was a Strategic Accounts Manager for SME Sales. I get to talk to clients everyday and manage my bag of accounts – which had 64 companies in it. It was in a way a very aggressive selling job and it made me question if I really like what I am doing. I am a graduate of Marketing and Advertising and to me Sales is really not what I would want to do. I would rather do branding or think of a product concept and present it to the Sales team because that’s where I am exceptionally good at.
After leaving the most recent company, I just thought to myself of what I really want to do and it fucks me up every time I don’t get to respond with a more precise answer. Should I study again and get a 2nd degree because it’s too early for me to get Master’s or enroll to a culinary school? I also thought about going abroad but was having hesitations and I can’t live alone. Needless to say but I want so much to do in my life that I don’t know where to start.
Because of my situation, I could not help but feel bad for not having a stable job. I was thinking about it for quite some time. I didn’t want to regret that’s why I looked in to the brighter side. I realized that there isn’t really a need for rush, that I should not feel bad, and that I have to allow myself to commit more mistakes as possible so I can learn from it. I know that in time God will bless me with what I deserve.
So to anyone who goes through the same thing, it’s okay or it will be okay. If you ever need to think about quitting your job, weigh your chances, think deeper and most importantly, pray. Besides, it’s hard to continue if half-hearted. You will not have the answers as soon as you needed them but it will come. God will enlighten you with it. Do what makes you happy.